痛苦的拯救Misanthropy Krozeedrezer

慢慢的拯救我吧

我要做世界上最美丽的女孩子
我要做世界上最可爱的公主

只有这样，我才能保护我自己的王子
白色的裙子朵朵圈起来，嘘，王子正在安静的睡着，我要好好的保护他，直到这个世界的尽头.

如果这个世界被大雨淹没，你应该怎么办？
不要紧哦，亲爱的，我和你手握着手，不会分离，直到寒冷浸泡到我们的尸体为止，但是即使那样，我也不会和你分离^_^

阿尸，别怕
阿尸，你害怕吗？
别怕，别怕，乖，阿尸，一切的苦难都会慢慢的流淌，远去，在生命的边缘中会有东西粲然的燃烧。

一天比一天害怕
我甚至不清楚这到底是为什么
细小的事情会把人逼入到深渊中
那么多的细节堆积起来的时候，似乎无路可走了
Beyond Light，迷幻的孩子正在沉溺到水底的深处

强迫症
我现在最大的问题是没有办法区分什么是正常的爱好
什么又是病态的强迫症
电脑硬盘的嗡嗡声音应该是自己的强迫症
那么窗外的秋千呢？车子的响声呢？玻璃上这座城市昏黄的反光呢？

到底什么才是病态和正常的分界线呢？
或许有些人生下来就是应该被痛苦折磨？还是这一切都是冥冥注定?

书上讲克服强迫症的步骤
首先你要明白这不是心理问题，是生理问题
但是我还是不明白，书中举例的症状是各种各样，但是像我这种对于细节过分敏感——敏感对象不停的改变着，有的时候是声音，有的时候是动作。为什么我没有找到例子呢？

这虚幻的未来，我感到从心里的恐惧，彻底的恐惧
即使在我写文章的时候，电脑硬盘发出的声音让我恶心——新的敏感对象吗？
灯关，死亡，露水，夕阳西下，从高楼一跃而下的少女，痛哭不知归家路的可怜人，我真的不知道怎么办了，真的，我真的不知道怎么办了

很高兴我住在3L，跌不死的，但是即使我从高空落下，对于这个世界毫无影响.

我不想死，我不想死，对于一个没有天赋的人来说，自杀只是耻辱的二次加深而已，May the light shines upon me，may the murk shelter me from chaos，your sincere slave，Ashi.

我以为我自己可以逃离这痛苦
但是我最后发现痛苦就是我本身
我无法做到享受，这既是折磨，这就是仇恨

具体呢？具体呢？
整座城市笼罩在巨大的光翼之下，我想起来我高一的时候，什么都不懂，睁开眼睛一看，觉得世界到处是绿色的希望。现在想想，其实那也挺好的

闭上眼睛吧。因为露水会湿透你的裙子的
真的，露水会湿透你的百合裙的

世界正在燃烧
痛苦会一直持续

阿尸，别怕
阿尸，你害怕吗？
别怕，别怕，乖，阿尸，一切的苦难都会慢慢的流淌，远去，在生命的边缘中会有东西粲然的燃烧。

这些歌太凄凉了 
想到了《死亡空间》那段小星星 
若有若无的低语，昏暗的灯火，主人公绝望的眼神 
女主人公的哀求和哭泣。被分尸散落一地的希望，就好像不停的下雨一样
我们还有什么呢？
 
你能听到呜咽的哭声，绝望的叹息
不知道未来的方向

妈妈。我淹死在水里了

Part 1 -Story of Ashi

心情不知道怎么的又开始新的波动和曲折，新的堕落和重生

Thou shall killed yourself，and there will  be blood。

you know my name is the lord，

I am the Living One; I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades.

the prohecy will walk out of his misery and renpent,my children.

Grace and peace be yours in abundance

Part 2-rehabilitation

  "We're on a mission from God," said the Blues Brothers. They had a full tank of gas, half a pack of cigarettes, and one hundred and six miles to Chicago. It was dark and they were wearing sunglasses. Their mission? Play a concert to save the orphanage in which they were raised by an "old school" nun, affectionately called the penguin. Neo is on a mission to save the human race from unwitting enslavement to artificial intelligence. Socrates too is on a mission, a mission from (the) God (Apollo), delivered via the Oracle at Delphi to his friend Chaerephon. His mission, should he choose to accept it, is to "wake up" the people of his hometown, Athens

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In a whisper through the din of Rob Zombie in the Goth club from hell, Trinity tells Neo, "It's the question that drives us." Their question: What is the Matrix? Like Neo, Socrates had "a splinter in his mind" and a driving question: What is the good life? Questioning brings trouble to both our heroes. Socrates finds himself on trial, charged with impiety and corrupting the youth, and Neo is accused by the Agents of "committing nearly every cyber crime we have a law for."

What I did was this: I approached one of those who seemed to be wise, thinking that there, if anywhere, I could prove the reply wrong, and say quite clearly to the oracle, "This man is wiser than I am, whereas you said I was the wisest." {Apology 21 c)

don't let that fool you; her message, though apparently plain, is Pythian in its purpose. Oddly, this Oracle asks the questions. "You know why you're here?" "What do you think? Do you think you're the one?" Neo responds, "I don't know." Socrates had always claimed not to know, but Neo really does not know. As the Oracle quips, he's cute but not too bright. She allows him to conclude for himself that he is not the One and tells him that being the One is like being in love. No one can tell you. "You know it through and through, balls to bones." A poor consolation, she tells him, "You got the gift, but it looks like you're waiting for something." "What?" he asks? Her prophetic reply: "Your next life maybe. Who knows? That's the way these things go."

The Oracle is without malice though, and even offers some free advice in the course of their session. Pointing to a sign above her kitchen door she asks Neo if he knows what it says. It's Latin, she tells him, it means "Know Thyself." This wisdom is in fact the key to making sense of the Oracle's prophecy. The same phrase was inscribed in Greek, yvcoSi coorcdv, (rather than the "barbaric" Latin, "Temet Nosce") in the temple of Apollo at Delphi, and it was surely more important in interpreting any Pythian prophecy than the actual answer given by the Oracle. Socrates realized this and lived by the related maxim "The unexamined life is not worth living." Cocky King Croessus did not know himself, as we saw, and paid dearly for it. Only in time does Neo come to know himself, and thus believe in himself, and thus fulfill the depth of the Oracle's prophecy—which includes Morpheus finding the One and Trinity falling in love with a dead man who is the One.

Self knowledge is the key, and without it we can unlock no other knowledge worth having. This is a theme important not just to Socrates and The Matrix but to other outstanding philosophical films. Fight Club poses the seemingly adolescent question, "How much can you know about yourself if you've never been in a fight?" We see, however, as the plot and the "fight" develop, this is not a moronic, testosteronic query. We gain self-knowledge through struggle. Consider also Boys Don't Cry with Brandon's deception of himself and others and the disastrous consequences this brings. Finally, Memento wrestles with the perplexing question: How is it possible for me to lie to myself? Is memory loss part of the answer? Hollywood and Athens agree, the unexamined life is not worth living.

ok.my sweet death,embrace me or I'll devour living and dead.